Okay, maybe that quote is a little melodramatic for the situation that I'm facing, but it's still relevant!
Do you remember, back in September, when I talked about my plan to slowly (really, very slowly) wean myself off antidepressants? At that time, I went from 50 mg of Paxil CR per day to 25 mg per day. It totally freaking sucked.
But, I stuck with it and eventually my body normalized. I am back to doing just dandy, and with only half the medication. Now it's time for the next step. I met with my doctor last week and we agreed to take it down to 12.5 mg per day.
The first time, I experienced the following symptoms of withdrawal: vivid dreams, intense emotions, anger and frustration, depression, nausea and diarrhea, headaches, poor concentration, and short-term memory problems.
I don't expect this time to be any different. Due to an unfortunate combination of busyness and procrastination, I was late in picking up my new prescription, so I missed a couple of doses altogether. (See disclaimer.)
Disclaimer: I did not plan this. You should never stop taking prescribed medication without talking to your doctor first. It's a bad idea!
Anyway, I'm already dizzy and my emotions are jumping around like water on a hot skillet. (Is that a saying?) I also can't seem to access all of my vocabulary, which is particularly annoying to a person who loves words.
I joked with Doug that I was just getting a head start on my withdrawal. (See disclaimer again.)
I'm quite sure that I'll be mentioning this topic again, but that's enough for now. Please keep me - and my family - in your prayers. If you aren't the type of person who prays... pray anyway. This level of crazy needs all the intercession it can get!
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And now for something completely different. Zoo photos!
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| Oooh, no you di'int! |
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| Kitty |
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| What we wanted was a nice family photo. What we got was poor lighting, wind-blown hair, a boy who did not want to have his picture taken, I don't even know what Lila's got going on with that face... and Doug, who actually looks nice! |
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| Eli, still not interested in the photos. And seriously, what the heck was wrong with my daughter?!? I swear she wasn't drunk. |
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| Eli's Favorite |
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| I think Handy (that's the stupid stuffed dog's name) should be glad there was glass between him and the wild dog. Pooch looks like he wants a Snoopy Snack. |
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| End of the day; dinner on the Riverwalk; Eli's new stuffed snake. Eli looks like he's asleep with his eyes open... but at least he's smiling! |
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| Grammie Love |
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| More people who are asleep with their eyes open. |
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